Broken Record

The mistakes keep playin in my head like a broken record.It is the fourth OSCE but this is the first that gave my heartache the most. Previously, at least I know some of them I was able to do well. But this one?it feels like I screwed every station. It was supposed to be the best performance because its the last, but somehow, its the worst

usually, after OSCE I feel like a free person. No looking back. Just forget the mistakes(after learning from it) and move forward. Ape nak jadi, pasrah je. but not with this. somehow its hard to let go.

I wanna forget it. trying to say to myself tawakkal pd Allah,berserah,ape dah jd dah jd,nasi da jadi taik,nangis air mata darah skalipn x gune.but it just does not work :((

Plz3 ya Allah, give ease to this heart... so that I can start fresh tomorrow, n not bothered by this anymore.......for now

A New Beginning of an Ending

I was searching for my Ospek certificate when I found other papers as well in the ospek file. A paper with a 'layan prasaan' notes. Never thought the notes I wrote when I just came here nearly becoming true...

Life is like a road, 

some are very long

some are very short

some are just nice

Each of us will go through our own path

some are smooth

some are rough

some with hills and holes and flood

but some are just flat and straight and empty

But somehow,

sometimes our path meets

and we walk through the path together,stronger

till the end of the road

we separate again,alone....

*sori ayat x best pn :P sambung sket k...

it seems like the end

but it has just begun

no more turning back

its time to move forward

to face what real life is


life is hard
but its not impossible
no matter what tomorrow promise us
we just have to give our best
what u get will always comes and goes away
but your effort will always stay


so be strong my friends!
ALL THE BEST IN LIFE


ps: chayok fahna !thanx for the boost. enjoy the song guys.may it boost up ur spirit too!

for Bieber haters,sori!

benang kambing?

semalam ayah call, cikgu seni adik suruh cari benang kambing utk kerja seni.apekah itu??adik pn xtau...so pergi kedai,tnya benang kambing, org kat kedai pn xtau...merata la ayah dan anak mencari benang kambing,si ibu plak xde, kalau ada mungkin dpt tangkap yg dimaksudkan cikgu die tu adalah wool, benang yg buat kait tu...cikgu ni pun,xde terms yang lagi senang ke

setelah merata mencari,meredah hujan, jumpela kedai yg terletak kat tingkat 2, dahla kene naik tangga yg kecik semacam je, nak naik pn mcm bahaya je.tp adik punye psl segala rintangan sanggup diredah.beli la 2 gulung(xtau la penjodoh bilangan dia ape), warna kuning n merah...konon2 ingt seni esok nk mengait.

esoknye(iaitu harini),rupanye benang tu dililit pade sebatang pensil, dicelup dlm air painting, pastu roll atas kertas.apekah cikgu??seni apekah ini?itula yg terlintas di pikiran ayah,mama dan aku.tp xle kondem lebih2,nanti adik marah."so dpt corak ape adik dah guling2 kn kat kertas tu?". "ntah,corak tayar".zzzzzzzz,cikgu kalau takat corak tayar xpayah la sampai benang kambing kot..getah or tali biase sudey...

ayah, sure x sangka kn, umur segini pn still kene lyn kerenah bdk skolah rendah :P ingtkan dah berlalu eh zaman2 tu XD

For those who love to complaint ^^

Ok, alya, cepat siapkan thesis. No more excuses! Chayokkk!

p/s : as a muslim, we should thank Allah rather than the stars (which is also created by Him ^^)

A mature conversation with a kid

Assalamualaikum...peace upon u. before I continue typing, I apologize if its always been a conversation between me with u-noe-who if u follow this blog :P I'll just write down the important parts k...

Me   : Adik tengah buat ape?
Adik : Adik tengah study
Me   : Owh,adik nak dekat exam eh?
Adik : takdela, study jela
Me   : O_o...oowwhhhh,kalau kak ngah nak dekat exam baru study. bagus2
Adik : Adik exam 14hb
*nak dekat la tu -_-". But then again,I dont recall studying a week earlier when I was standard 6

Adik : Mama pesan kat kak ngah suruh kak long study (mum was washing the bathroom, so she passes her msg thru adik.mcm telepon buruk dah)
Me   : Laaa, adik la pesan kat kak long suruh die study
Adik : Adik da pesan da..
Me   : Adik ckp ape kat kak long
Adik : study betul2
Me   : ........
*confius dgn sebentar dgn situasi.siape patut nasihat siape sbnrnye nih???

One day,if this blog still exist, Im gonna show her, that she's already old,literally at the age 12 :P

Happy Birthday U, the centre of attention

She is the centre of attention and she knows it -_-". In our family, of course because she is the last one,the unexpected. with the differences of 11 years with me, 9 years with my thought-to-be-the-youngest brother. But then,cant feel the difference much cause she talks like an adult. The effect of living with adult only (mum n dad)

Among the cousins she is the favorite. Those around her age loves to play with her. The older ones love to treat her. Even the whole family members of my second aunt (mak ngah) called her 'adik'. Adik siapela dorg panggil tu kan.sibuk je. Jeles sbb asal balik kampung je adik aku lenyap. No where to be seen at our grandparent's house cause she's already been 'kidnapped' to their house. mentang2 la ade PS2. Hmmmmphhh.

Why they all like her?because she's friendly?nah..dem shy la that kid.manje?nah....manje dgn kitorg je. suke ckp pelat2 ala2 comel?yekkk. She's just plain innocent, and i guess if skema is a bit harsh, maybe being proper (sopan) is the best word to describe. 

Tak suke cari gadoh which makes other cousins like to play with her. "Kakak Qilah mane?" are the question that is always been asked every time they come to our house or if we all balik kampung.

Because she's polite and quiet, she does not complaint or demand anything (dgn org lain la). Orang kate senang nak jagela. That's why la slaloo kene ambik, making my sister like their own.ceit.. But everytime she wants to sleepover at my cousins house, even though we know its already routine everytime balik kampung, she will always politely, with a shy,innocent a lil bit scared face ask my mum, "mama...boleh adik tidur rumah mak ngah x?". Ingat senang2 ke nak bagi lepas bende secomel tuh.huhu

Me   : dengar cite, ade org dpt netbook*dgn nada jeles*

Adik : uh.. (jawapan standard kalau nak elak soalan)

Me   : dah umur 12 thn ni nak nangis lg x? (over sensitive..blaja dari sapela tu)

Adik : uh..

Me   : Boleh cium lagi tak?

Adik : tak tau la (dah boring kene soklan panas bertubi2)

Thank you Allah for completing our family ^_^

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADIK!!!! 

P/S: Btw, my brother has been safely evacuated to Alexandria and today will be heading to Jeddah. Thank you for all the prayers. Keep praying for them k!

doc,seminar hasil sama pendadaran bisa sekalian gak?

In order to do the seminar hasil, have to get approval from 3 docs. Which means they all have to be free on the same date.

7hb : dr A n C dah bole tp dr B ade meeting

8hb : asalnye semua dr da bole tp tibe2 dr A plak ade meeting. so die kate 9hb die bole bile2 mase je

9hb : dr B ke Banyumas!

kesian dr C...luckily they extend the submission date.pasni kalo ade dr nk tuka tarikh lg nk emo suh bg A trus.dr C,jom emo bersama :P

ps: persediann utk koas.have to deal with it every time changing duty station